Losing your shit doesn't give you credibility.

It just makes you an embarrassment.

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.

Saw this on Tumblr about K/S but got reminded of Chem, which was completely and utterly a fiasco.

The worst thing about having a Blackberry is that my heart races when I get a new e-mail, hoping that it'll be from DSTA scholarship (sigh). Plus e-mail ringtone is the sound the transporter makes so it's actually quite frightening

I think I'm oddly happy considering I have no life now. I want to read something other than TIME magazine (Everything Is Illuminated, Children Playing Before A Statue of Hercules, American Gods, Bad Omens and Pato Alto are all among the pile of books I own and haven't gotten around to reading). I want to play something on guitar that's not Handel or Gloria Estefan. I want to learn things that don't involve magnets or carboncations.

It has never been this hard to make myself get down to work. I think I would gladly study if I could just have half of the day to myself without having to run all over Singapore to fufill committments. I never realised how much I treasured my ~alone time.

Plus I'm running out of CDs to listen to and I have a lot more to study. I'm far far behind how much I should have already revised for CTs, yet I'm not concerned.

(Sigh) Still oddly content though. Maybe its because I'm getting enough sleep :) Although I could probably do more things if I slept less but I'm far happier this way heehee

Because everything goes wrong at the same time

Trying to make amends
Got shouted at because taking out your frustrations on someone is a very mature way to deal
Got made fun of by a friend (whom, I'm starting to realise, can be truly awful) in a mean-spirited manner
Feeling slightly ignored (which, in addition to making me feel sort of crappy, is magnifying my guilt)
And exceedingly unproductive
And worried & slightly stressed out over my academics
Might be setting myself up for disappointment (hope won't let me use "definitely" here)
Valentine's Day is coming up and I won't be able to hug most of the people I want to hug and tell them how much they mean to me

My usage of English here is most unlike me, but forming proper sentences would cause me to say too much, I think
(No periods, will capitalization do?)

According to The Economist, feeling bad is a sort of self-imposed repentance for what we think we've done wrong
But I've also heard we shouldn't go to bed angry
Yet I'm bucketsful of guilty and indignant right now

Tomorrow is a new day

(If I send Valentines by mail tomorrow will they get to their destinations by Monday?)

CNY was awesome (as it always is each year) -- my grandma's soup, ang paos, oranges, pineapple tarts (I think between me Ber Ber and Beatrice we finished 6 tubs) and a break from school. Crystal introduced me to the Vampire Diaries, so I spent the weekend finishing the entire season.

I'm also having a lot of fun at my H3, I don't even really care that Linear Algebra isn't as difficult as Physics IV and that I have to spend a lot of money and time getting to NUS, I find it very interesting and fun to do :) Hope I still enjoy it as much when it starts getting difficult

Tried to watch Love and Other Drugs yesterday, failed miserably. Cinelesiure sucks, their genius way of checking your ID practically forces you into paying for a movie you have no intention of ever watching. Hereafter was I think, the worst movie I've ever had the misfortune to sit through. It was so incredibly cliche (especially since the last movie I watched was The Fighter -- raw and heartfelt and nuanced at every turn and Bale was so incredibly good) and Matt Damon grew fat ):

But it always nice to spend time with Abii :) Marche (again) and gossip go well together, I think.